Winter Wraps, Spring Awakening

That which is a mystery shall no longer be so, and that which is veiled will be revealed; that which has been withdrawn will emerge into the light, and all ... shall see and together they shall rejoice."

--Alice Bailey

Today is the sixth day after my Reiki Level One attunement. My consciousness is supposed to be accommodating the influx of new energy that Kim blessed me with, and it is.

Yesterday, I felt called to be with my oldest son, Steve, who had just quit a job on the mountain, due to altercations with his boss. His happiest moments were on that mountain, yet he denied any feelings of loss. At 2:38 on the fifth night, I woke up to stabs of panic, and immediately thought of Steve.

I felt it would be okay to wait until morning to call him. He accepted an invitation to breakfast, over which he admitted that his feelings had changed from being pleased with his decision to quit, to remorse, but not sufficiently to warrant apology or asking for his job back. He could not think of anything else he would rather be doing. I told him about my panic awakening and he nodded his head, revealing that his remorse was deepening into depression and a sense of uselessness, now a frozen inability to do much of anything. His apartment was a mess, this mother noticed. I threw out many suggestions that were all met with zero enthusiasm. We checked out a few jobs together, nothing lit any fire. So the superior answer was to head for the slopes and just Be, together. Two with Nature.

After a day of skiing, I fell asleep early, right after dinner, and awoke four hours later. I could not sleep so I read my Essential Reiki book by Diane Stein. My husband was also up, and asked me to read to him. My readings helped me to realize that I was running too far ahead of myself. Quite literally, in fact. The blog I wrote before this one, about the group meditation and distance healing, is a better reflection of Reiki Two. I have not adjusted to my Level One attunement which is about integrating the Energy into yourself and practicing directly with others. "Slow down girl, be more patient with yourself. Take it One Day at a Time."

Another insight from the rest of my night's sleep, was to ask my younger son, who will be graduating from elementary school in May, his feelings about the changes going on in the household and how he would like to be a part. We spoke this morning and he is both supportive and enthusiastic about Reiki and healing touch . We discussed spiritual rites of passage, something he never experienced, and he agreed that he would like us to fashion something for him. I had already reserved a room at the Grand Canyon for two nights, and another two nights in Sedona AZ, for the week he finishes school. So my subconscious had already been plotting an Awakening with Nature. Now it fits to add an Attunement with Reiki.

So this is how it works? Coincidence. I don't think so. I will try not to get too far ahead of myself, but some spiritual adventure is developing for mid May that I will share with my family: at least one son and my husband Rich.